Boy's dorm

‘’Yeah but still. I mean even you have to admit most of it's mine. Like a damn fountain...’’, Hikaru said, he sounded a bit annoyed, probably with himself. Shun looked at him for a moment before realizing what he had said and he chuckled at it in response, before laughing. He couldn't help himself, he just found Hikaru really funny and cute right now.
He forced himself to stop laughing, biting his lip to cause pain to himself so his laughs would go down a bit. ‘’I'm sorry for laughing, Hikaru. You're just too funny sometimes.’’, he said, smiling brightly. ‘’Though, you are not the only fountain here. However, mine went elsewhere...’’
At his last words he blushed again, glancing away, feeling a bit ashamed. He had wanted to say it as a joke but it came out sounding rather stupid and now he felt ashamed of his words. ‘’Never mind, forget that I said that...’’
However, Hikaru didn't really seem affected by his words. Shun looked at him in confusion as the boy started laughing now was well, and his laughing grew just as much, until tears left his eyes and he had to wipe them away. At first Shun thought Hikaru laughed because of Shun's words, of his joke, yet when Hikaru pulled up his boxers and got to up, walking over to him, Shun began to think it was something else.
Suddenly Hikaru pulled Shun into a hug and Shun gasped, before calming down and hugging the boy back softly, wrapping his arms around Hikaru's back.
‘’You know you try so hard but you really could be a girl. Your just so darn cute sometimes and you get embarrassed and shy so easily~’’, Hikaru said and Shun blushed again, this time even darker, as he rested his head on the boy's chest and stared at the ground. Why did Hikaru always have to tease him so much? He always teased Shun. When they were little, even now to this day; he hadn't forgotten about the ways he used to tease Shun.
‘’If you want to try I don't mind at all. I'd love to date an amazing and sweethearted boy like you, Takeru. Though I get to be the boy so that makes you my bitch~’’, Hikaru said after pulling back from their hug. Shun gave him an annoyed stare at his last words, but his expression softened after a moment and he smiled weakly; Hikaru hadn't changed a bit, he was still that little boy he used to know back then, only grown up now, more mature. Well, more mature? His vocabulary had grown, that was for sure.


‘’Though in all honesty. You'd probably like that anyway. Matches your beautiful personality, man. So yeah... I'd be honored to try it with my best friend. So would you do my the honors of becoming my boyfriend, Takeru?’’, Hikaru asked and he opened up his arms, like he was reaching out for Shun. As if he waited for the boy to hug him; and a hug meant Shun said yes to his question. Shun swallowed as he stared at Hikaru's arms.
He suddenly remembered his father at home, with his mother. His father would hate Shun if he found out about this, about what just had happened between Shun and Hikaru and about everything else. He began to feel afraid, scared. He didn't mind hi father hating him, his father hated him already and he hated his father for everything the man had done to him. But he was afraid of what his father would think of this, what he would say. He was afraid his father would hate Hikaru and force Shun to never see him again, nor speak to him.
Shun stared at the ground, not sure what to do. He could say yes and keep it hidden from his father since the only times he went over to his old home was during summer vacation or other holidays to see his mother. His father never had to find out about Hikaru, he could keep it a secret. But then again, what would Hikaru think of him if he asked the boy to stay away from his parents' house? He looked back up at Hikaru and took a deep breath, nodding his head and walking over to the boy, embracing him, hugging him tight. He rested his head on Hikaru's shoulder, closing his eyes.
‘’Yes... I would love to try... Though, my father would hate this, so he cannot know about this, okay...?’’, Shun said and he pulled back to look Hikaru straight in the eyes, fear in them and a serious expression on his face. ‘’My father can never know about this, I don't know what would happen if he did find out, I don't want to know. But if he does find out our relationship as it is now might be at risk... He might even make sure we can never see each other nor speak to each other again... Do you understand, Hikaru?’’
He waited for an answer from the boy when all of a sudden his phone started ringing. Startled by the sound he looked down at his pants laying on the ground. He stood there frozen and scared, just staring; he was afraid it might be his father calling him. He didn't dare to answer the phone.

Roki giggled softly as he wiggled his toes and waited for Toru to answer. The boy seemed a bit embaressed by his questions. The blush on his face was clear, though a bit faint, and he kept avoiding Roki's gaze. 'Is he really being teased again? Maybe he should go rest in his room. Usually after him and other Toru scream at each other and move around a bunch before saying his name, he is happier.'
His innocent thoughts were suddenly cut through however, when Toru seemed to gain back his control. Though the boy was blushing heavily still, he started to speak to little Roki. Talking in a quick and kinda demainding tone, which caused Roki to take a step back.
"What do you need him for? Why do you suddenly want to talk with me and him anyway? I thought you were with that one boy. You remeber him? Nii Nii wasn't it? Tall, nicely build, hot, maybe a decent size below as well?"
Roki nodded his head to the side, giving Toru a confused look. The way the boy was talking he sounded as if he had done a full overlook. With all the info Toru had given him he was sure his older brother could write a book on Mika. Even pieces yet to be seen judging by the last words.
He raised his arms, hiding them behind his back as he kicked the ground shyly with his foot. "I dunno... Nii Nii is just Nii Nii. Though I think he is upset with me..." He felt tiny tears from in his eyes and he looked at he ground more then a bit upset himself. He really hoped Toru could help him with being mature. He didn't like upsetting and acting like a child in front of others, and he had taken quite the liking to Mika.
"Fine... S'up, little bro? What did you want to talk to or ask me?"
Roki grinned once he heard his brothers voice changed a bit. It wasn't much just ever so slightly and Roki had learned to listen for it. He loved talking to Taro instead of Toru. The boy seemed a bit nicer then Toru and didn't get mad at him. Well not as much, unless of course hurt Toru or made the boy upset.
"Oh, so you ARE brothers."
Roki jumped at the girls sudden words, having almost forgotten she was there too. He wiped at his face and nodded slowly. "Mhm. Toru and inner Toru are my brothers." He smiled innocently at her before turning back to his brother, who seemed to be waiting for him to speak. "Okay, Toru... I have a problem that i think only you can help with... I don't know anyone else to ask and even though you scare me and... and did something to me eariler that i don't understand..."
Suddenly, like always, Roki looked up placinghis tiny hands on his hips as he eyed the older boy up. "Oh and you maked me wet de fwoor, Toru! That was mean! Now i don't have any boxers on and I have to get some cwean ones!" Roki scolded, actually causing him to look a lot cuter.
Roki crossed his arms and shook his head once at Toru before continuing. "Anyway you can say sorry by telling me something. How could I or can I..." He let his voice trail off. Did he really want Torus help? He always seemed a bit mean and never had really helped Roki. If anything he had gotten the younger boy in more trouble.
Finaly deciding to at least give it a try he started speaking again. "...I want to be more mature. Like you. I'm tired of everyone inculding Nii Nii thinking I'm a baby... I want to be growed up like you and since your my bwother and you owes me a sorry you should help me." He swallowed nad looked up at his older brother shyly, popping his fingers together, before adding nervously. "...Pwease?"

As Shun nervously looked down at his pants laying there on the ground he was terrified of his buzzing phone. He wanted to ignore it but just couldn't block out the sound, so he found himself staring in terror. What if it was his father? What if it was... him.
He yelped in shock when Hikaru suddenly grabbed his hand and turned his face, forcing Shun to look at him. Shun stared in Hikaru's eyes, a faint blush on his face as he told himself in his mind it was just Hikaru, that nothing was going to happen to him.
‘’I promise. I will never ever do and say anything that might cause you harm. If we have to hide this from him by all means we will. As long as you comfortable and safe I don't mind.’’, Hikaru said as an answer and Shun swallowed, nodding and smiling weakly afterwards. He felt a bit better, a bit safer. Though, he could still hear the buzzing from his phone behind him.
He looked at Hikaru as the boy leaned forward and kissed his cheek. Closing his eyes Shun sighed, hoping the phone would soon fall silent. He just wanted to have some time alone with Hikaru. And if it was his father calling him, he knew for sure he would be too terrified to even speak right now. ‘’Okay? No need to worry.’’
Shun nodded and opened his eyes, looking back at Hikaru. The boy gripped his hands tighter and smiled at Shun, as if he wanted to comfort him, and Shun was afraid he was going to tell him to pick up the phone. And he did.
‘’Are you going to answer that? Do you want to actually? Who is it calling? If it's him I can speak with him if you want.’’, Hikaru said and Shun swallowed again, shrugging. He let go of Hikaru's hands and pulled back from the boy, turning around to walk over to his pants. Picking them up he threw them on the bed and started searching in his pockets for the thing. When he found his phone he pulled it out and hesitatingly looked at the lit screen. It was indeed his father calling him. Shun galnced at Hikaru, an uncomfortable look in his eyes before staring down at the phone and answering the call, bringing the phone to his ear slowly.


‘’H-hello?’’, he asked, waiting for a response. It was silent for a moment and Shun took a deep breath. Then he heard his father's voice and he felt his body tremble. He sat down on the bed's edge just to keep him from stumbling or falling.
‘’Takeru, are you there? You're off from school now, right? Why don't you go buy your old man a beer, hmm?’’, the voice from the other side of the call said and Shun breathed out a breath he didn't know he had been holding. He sighed and shook his head, closing his eyes.
‘’Dad, I don't live at home anymore. I live in a dorm room on the school's grounds. I'm not in the neighborhood anymore. I can't buy beer for you. And by the way, I'm not even allowed to buy beer, yet.’’, he said in response and he bit his lip as he waited for a response. He waited for screams and yells, for cursing and mean words. ‘’Remember, dad?’’
‘’So? I need to get it myself? You're sick. Do you know what I have to do all day to take care of your mother and sister? Get your ass over here and bring me a beer, NOW!’’
Shun swallowed and looked at Hikaru, before staring back at the ground.
‘’I can't right now dad, I'm sorry, maybe next time...’’, he whispered and from the other side of the call came fuzzing and grumbled, an annoyed voice. Shun looked back up at Hikaru and covered his phone with his hands so the man wouldn't hear him say anything to Hikaru. ‘’He's drunk again and demanding me for more... He doesn't even care I live further away now. The prick...’’
‘’Hey! Who are you talking to? Who else is there with you? Speak up, Takeru!’’, Shun's farther suddenly yelled and Shun stared at his hands with shock in his eyes. His father had startled him so much he had almost jumped off the bad and dropped his phone. Not sure what to say he couldn't find his words, sitting there and staring at the ground in fear.
‘’Um... I um...’’

Shun watched how in the corner of his eye Hikaru went to look into one of the drawers, taking out a shirt and wearing it. He seemed a bit scared or upset, as he hugged himself. Shun worried about him, but only slightly, because right now he was dealing with his own things. His father had called him on the phone and he was being a sick drunk fuck again, like he often was when he called Shun. Because to be honest, he only called Shun to ask for a beer, never to just chat with him like father and son. It was always the same question. ''Can you get any beer for me'' instead of ''Hey son, how are you doing today?''. He never asked Shun that question. Never.
Hikaru came up to him as Shun tried to find his words, try to say something to his father. He heard heard Hikaru's voice, so now he knew Hikaru was there with him, though he didn't exactly know yet it was Hikaru. That was, until Hikaru stood beside him and began to mind Shun's business.
‘You okay, Takeru?’’’, he asked and Shun gave him a glance, mouth shut tight. There was a begging look n his two different colored eyes as he slowly shook his head. He didn't dare to say anything, afraid his father would find out about them, about what just had happened. What was he gonna do, what was he gonna say to this asshole?
All of a sudden Shun saw the grin on Hikaru's face and froze. He held his phone tight to his ear, afraid Hikaru would try to take it from him, because Hikaru's grins meant bad things, most of the time. Shun wanted to open his mouth to say something to Hikaru, but the boy was a lot quicker than him, taking Shun's phone and placing the speaker to his chest.
‘’What are you doing?’’, Shun whispered, his voice sounding like a hiss. He was annoyed, he was afraid. He was terrified. He waned to say something else but Hikaru suddenly grabbed his face. Shun wanted to pull back but it was already too late as Hikaru leaned in and kissed Shun deeply. Shun wasn't too happy with this, but automatically he closed his eyes upon feeling Hikaru's lips against his.
He felt Hikaru pull back and wanted to say something again but once more Hikaru stopped him from speaking, licking Shun's lips before pushing his tongue into the boy's mouth mouth. In response Shun started pushing at Hikaru's chest, trying to get the boy away from him. Hikaru pulled back not long after and grinned at Hikaru, running his hand through Shun's hair and messing it up. He winked and Shun huffed in response, glancing away staring at the ground with this blush on his face.


‘’Hello? Mr, Hasu?’’, he asked and Shun looked up in shock to see Hikaru had removed the speaker from his chest and was now talking to Shun's father. Shun's father. Shun took a deep breath and shook his head quickly, waving his arms at Hikaru as a sign for the boy to stop talking and put the phone away, or to give it back, but Hikaru ignored his movements and Shun hissed angrily, his voice as soft as a little squeaking mouse. ‘’Hikaru, are you insane...!?’’
‘’It's Hikaru. Remember me? Haven't spoken to you for quite a while. How you been?’’, Hikaru asked and Shun swallowed, closing his eyes and covering his head and face with his hands, staring at the ground, looking away. He couldn't take this. Things were going to get bad. Very bad.
‘’Wait what? How are you even there? You left with your grandfather? Where is that man anyway?’’, Shun could hear his father ask in the other side of the call and he was ready to scream. This was going the very wrong way. The VERY wrong way.
‘’Still tore up from the floor up? Just asking since all I remember is your drinking and shit. Not saying it's a bad thing though. You wanna end your life sooner then trust me when I say, that's 100% okay in my book.’’, Hikaru then said and Shun gasped, covering his mouth with his hands as he stated at Hikaru wide eyed.
‘’What!? How dare you, you little fucker!? Oh, I will come and get you! I will come and bash your fucking brains in!’’, Shun's father yelled in response on the other side and Shun cowered, too afraid to say or do anything. He hated his father's yelling. It was always too much. Way too much. ‘’Remember my words! I. Am. Going. To. Kill. You! You son of a fagot!’’
‘’Make him stop! Make him stop! Make him stop!’’, Shun thought, begging for Hikaru to stop the call, begging for his father to shut up and leave him alone.


Shun got to his feet and quickly and pulled the phone out of Hikaru's hand. ‘’Bye dad, talk to you later.’’, he said very quickly before ending the call and throwing his phone on the bed. He then looked at Hikaru, giving him an extremely furious look. ‘’Are you fucking insane!? That's my father you were talking to!’’, he said before pulling at his own hair, trying to process what just had happened. He started to repeat the exact same words Hikaru had said to him earlier, still staring at him in anger. ‘’I promise. I will never ever do and say anything that might cause you harm. If we have to hide this from him by all means we will. As long as you comfortable and safe I don't mind. The exact words you spoke Hikaru, but you just did the complete opposite! You made it so fucking clear to him that you were 'pulling me inside out' before you went to speak to him! You didn't keep your promise Hikaru. By all means I am not, and I repeat, NOT feeling comfortable right now! And I'm not safe, either! He's going to come here and he's going to kill me, I know for sure he is! He will get his drunken ass here and he will kill me! What were you thinking!?’’
He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself, he sat down on the bed and covered his face with his hands, shaking his head slowly. He hadn't meant to yell at Hikaru like this, but he was scared, very scared. What if his father had made the connection and really was on his way to the school to murder his son and call him a fagot in front of everyone? That seriously wasn't a pleasant thought.
‘’I'm sorry for yelling, I'm just... I... I'm tired, I need sleep...’’, he whispered as he began wiping at his eyes, getting rid of the tears. He shoved himself into Hikaru's bed and laid there on his side, curled up, arms wrapped around his legs. He stared at the pillow for a moment before closing his eyes. ‘’I'm sorry... I... I'm scared...’’

‘’I-I-I... I'm r-really... s-sorry, T-T-Tak.. aru...’’, Hikaru whispered and Shun looked at him, head slightly turned. He shook his head in response, trying to find his words, but he was so goddamn tired all of a sudden. Tired of everything. ‘’No it's okay, I'm sorry... I didn't mean to yell... and-’’
Shun cut himself off there as he looked at Hikaru. The boy seemed so terrified all of a sudden and Shun started to worry about him. Had he said something bad to cause Hikaru pain? Had his yelling really been that big of a deal to Hikaru?
‘’No! That's not true! I know it's not! Damn it get out of my head you old fuck! Go away! You lie! No! Damn it no!’’, Hikaru suddenly yelled and he shook his head, Shun looked at him on shock and sat up straight on the bed, staring at Hikaru. What was the boy doing? What was going on all of a sudden? ‘’Hikaru...? Are you okay...?’’, Shun asked, sitting on the edge of the bed now. His hands rested on it as his feet stood on the ground, ready to push himself up as quick as possible if needed to.
Suddenly Hikaru fell onto his stomach and automatically Shun jumped to his feet, terrified. He wanted to rush over to Hikaru and grab him, trying to calm him down, but the boy crawled towards the door, tried to make a run for it. He seemed in deep shock and Shun began to worry about him more and more. This wasn't healthy, this wasn't good. This wasn't normal. What was happening?
‘’NO!! G-GOD NO!! MAKE IT STOP!! IT HURTS!! IT HURTS!! I'M S-SORRY!! I N-NEVER WANTED TO BE D-DIFFERENT!! I N-NEVER ASKED T-TO BE!! L-LEAVE ME ALONE!! W-WHY!? WHY M-MAKE ME SUFFER!? DAMN IT JUST K-KILL ME GRANDFATHER!! STOP M-MAKING ME S-SUFFER!!’’, Hikaru suddenly began to scream and the sound was deafening, Shun covered his ears in response and felt tears sting his face. He was afraid, terrified. He as terrified because he thought something was terribly wrong with Hikaru, and he didn't know what to do. The look in Hikaru's eyes, it told Shun the boy was far gone, that he was in shock. This was real.


Hikaru wanted to go for the door but bolted into a shelf and fell back. Shun jumped onto the bed and crawled over it to get to the other side, his eyes on Hikaru the whole time, huge and filled with terror. Tears had now begun to roll down his cheeks. Hikaru hit the back of his head n the wooden frame of the bed and then just collapsed on it. And then he just laid there on the bed, and Shun sat beside him on the edge, his body truly shivering like crazy. This was real. But it all felt so terrifyingly fake, it was so scary to see Hikaru act like this. Shun had never seen him like this. Not like this.
‘’Takeru... I'm sorry Takeru... I never asked to be different and I didn't mean to upset you if your upset with me... D-dang... I... I said to s-st...op...’’, Hikaru whispered and then he closed his eyes, falling unconscious. Shun sat there for a rather long while, staring at Hikaru as he himself sat there on the bed, just staring in shock. His body still shivered badly and his breaths were short panicking gasps.
Once he finally had calmed down from the terrible shock he took a long deep breath before blowing it back up, scooting a bit closer to Hikaru carefully.
‘’I... I'm not upset with you... I...’’, he whispered, as if Hikaru could still hear him. He started running his hand through Hikaru's hair, brushing some bangs out of the boy's face. He sighed and rubbed his eyes, still not able to process this all. ‘’What... what just happened...? Something happened to him all of a sudden, he looked so far gone... He wasn't himself... Was it my father's words? Was it my yelling...? Probably both... Oh god I shouldn't have yelled at him...’’
Shun saw the small reopened wound on his forehead and sighed again, getting to his feet. He went over to his clothes and grabbed them, quickly getting dressed back into his pants and school uniform. After that he went to the small bathroom which each dorm room had, and came back with a piece of toilet paper. Sitting back on the bed's edge he carefully dabbed the small wound till it stopped bleeding, removing the blood that had already dripped out, as well.


After that Shun thew away the toilet paper before getting back to Hikaru and grabbing the boy, carefully, dragging him off the bed before pulling away the covers and picking Hikaru back up, carrying him into the bed and pulling the sheets over him so he was warm.
Shun took a short moment to stroke Hikaru's hair again before kissing the boy's cheek gently, after a moment of hesitation. He then laid beside Hikaru on the covers and kept on stroking the Hikaru's hair as he rested his head in the boy's neck.
‘’Oh god this hadn't meant to happen... It's all my fault. What happened? What did I do? I yelled, but... I yelled...’’, he whispered to himself, wrapping his free arm around Hikaru. ‘’I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to yell... It won't happen again, I promise. I promise...’’
Shun wiped at his eyes with his sleeve to get rid of the tears but more fell and he silently started sobbing into Hikaru's neck, soaking the upper part of the boy's shirt. ‘’It's all my fault this happened. I shouldn't have yelled... Damn, I shouldn't even have picked up the phone in the first place... I'm so stupid... I deserve to be punished...’’, Shun told himself, suddenly remembering the small knife in his pocket. He reached for it and took it out, staring at it. He gave Hikaru an apologetic glance before looking back at the knife.
‘’I'm not supposed to do this, Hikaru doesn't want me to do this... But... but I deserve it... I deserve pain... I'm worth nothing, why does he even care about me? All I do it hurt him and fuck things up...’’, Shun whispered and he closed his eyes, sobbing again silently. He wiped at his eyes again but it was no use. Taking deep breath as Shun laid there beside Hikaru, he brought the knife down towards his arm.

Shun opened his eyes and dazedly looked around the room, blinking his eyes a few times. He wasn't sure where he was right now, but soon he realized he was laying beside Hikaru. He wiped at his eyes to get the sleep away before dropping his arm back down again, cuddling up against Hikaru's back.
‘’Did I fall asleep...? When?’’, Shun asked himself in his thought. He felt a slight pain on his arms and remembered what had happened before he had fallen asleep; Hikaru had been through some trouble, he had acted so different and it had scared Shun so much. He had been terrified, not sure what to do or how to respond. He felt terrible for not being able to help Hikaru, and he felt so terribly guilty. He closed his eyes firmly, forcing back tears. He didn't want to cry, it didn't feel right. He didn't deserve to cry.
All of a sudden he heard the bed creak slightly; Hikaru's body was shifting. Shun held his eyes closed, not wanting Hikaru to know he was awake. He felt too ashamed right now to look at the boy or to talk to him, for multiple reasons. ‘’Why did I do this again...? I know I didn't promise him so it's not that bad, I think... well, it is bad, but... Why...? Just because I wanted to punish myself?’’
‘’Takeru?’’, Hikaru asked but Shun didn't respond, the feeling of guilt eating on him from the inside. He felt the mattress underneath him shift again but still didn't look up. He really didn't want to get confronted with Hikaru right now. What should he say when talking to him again?
He felt Hikaru touch his hair and his body jolted slightly, but only slightly. He hadn't expected that to happen and it had startled him, but he couldn't open his eyes now, he didn't want to. Then Shun felt Hikaru brush his hand over Shun's arm, over the cuts Shun had created with his knife. Where had he actually left the thing? He couldn't remember.
Hikaru began to talk and Shun could hear the disappointment in his voice. He even called him by his nickname now. ‘’Shun... Aw god what am I gonna do with you?’’, Hikaru said and Shun swallowed, feeling even worse now. He felt the bed shift once more and heard footsteps, realizing Hikaru was walking around the room now. ‘’Well what are you gonna do with me, hmm? Tell me, because I don't even know what to do with myself...’’


After a moment he felt he was being pushed towards the middle of the bed, but he still didn't move or open his eyes. He heard Hikaru walk around again and return and then he felt the bed shift again, realizing Hikaru was sitting back down. Shun bit his lip a bit when he felt Hikaru grab his arm and wrap something around it, probably some sort of bandage. It hurt slightly but not much, but it was more the feeling of getting startled every time. ‘’Why won't he just leave me alone? Why is he even doing this...? Stop taking care of me, I don't deserve it...’’, Shun thought, negative about himself again. He was scared and confused, and rather sad; why did Hikaru take care of him? He really didn't know. He felt he was about to cry again but kept forcing back the tears.
Hikaru got back up again and kissed Shun's head, before brushing his hair and Shun heard him walk away. That's when the footsteps left the room completely and Shun opened his eyes slowly to look around the room. He wasn't sure where Hikaru had gone off to but he didn't have to wonder for long, because as he looked at the bathroom door he could hear rushing water.
‘’I guess he is taking a shower?’’, Shun thought as he looked at the door, yawning for a moment; a yawn he had been holding for a while now. He stretched his limbs, bringing his arms up into the air, before dropping them again and just laying there on his back, staring up at the ceiling for quite a long time. ‘’What am I going to do with myself...? I can't pretend to be sleeping forever, now can I? Wait, did Hikaru not go to his last class? Did he just wake up, really? He will get in trouble, and it's all my fault...’’
the water stopped and Shun rushed himself onto his side, closing his eyes again. The door opened and he could hear Hikaru come back into the bedroom. That's when he began to curse at himself and force himself to open his eyes. He couldn't be laying like this here forever. ‘’Open your eyes, look at him... Fucking look at him...’’


Shun opened his eyes just in time to see Hikaru digging through a drawer of one of his dressers. And he was... naked. Shun frowned before letting out an amused snort; did Hikaru do this on purpose in case Shun would wake up? Well it was working. Shun felt a little bit better all of a sudden and decided to tease Hikaru for a bit, joining the boy in his weird... let's say things. He whistled to Hikaru, a weak grin on his face, and he lifted his head slightly to get a better look at Hikaru.
‘’Looking good~’’, he said with a hoarse voice and he forced himself up in a sitting position. He yawned again and rubbed at his eyes, still feeling rather tired. ‘’You know how to show off~’’
he chuckled at his own words before the chuckle and grin faded from his face. He stared at the floor, rubbing the back of his head as he felt slightly nervous again, a faint blush on his face.
‘’You made me worry about you a lot, you know that...?’’, he began, feeling rather uncomfortable. ‘’I don't know what happened to you two hours ago but you really scared me, okay...? I was really scared... And I feel guilty too, because I wasn't able to help you... Though, I don't even know how I was going to help you with... that.’’
Shun finally let some tears roll down his cheeks and he wiped at them, getting rid of them. Shun got to his feet and walked over to Hikaru, looking at the boy. He brushed his thumb across Hikaru's forehead carefully, where the small wound was; the blood had stopped coming out. ‘’You hurt yourself...’’
Shun swallowed and then sighed, before hugging Hikaru softly. After a moment he pulled back and glanced away, the blush on his face growing slightly. ‘’You should get yourself dressed... I am already dressed. By the way, you missed your last class for today. I'm sorry Hikaru...’’

Roki stared at his father very confused with what the man was doing. He kept touching Toru who either didn't seem to care or didn't know what to do. He heard Toru whimper and moan a bit but wasn't sure what he was seeing.
His tummy started to feel a bit funny and he swallowed, afraid to speak or say another. Why ws his father doing this to Toru? Had this really been what Toru meant? If so he wasn't sure how this was to help him become a mature adult.
"Toru stay still I'm not even really touching you."
"No your drunk. Get off. Roki wasn't even asking about this. He was asking about-ohhhh~"
Roki blinked and looked around, growing very scared and nervous he didn''t really know what he was seeing but he did like it. Toru seemed to want this but at the same time he didn't it seemed, as his words said otherwise. "Daddy..." Roki whimpered yet he receved no answer.
"See Roki? Thats how you bring a man down. Works everytime. Worked on you mother too, son. But it is very wrong to do if its for love. Never do it to another because you love them only to bring down their shields so you have the upper hand."
Roki just nodded, scooting away as he looked at the ground. He didn't want to watch this anymore, because it was starting to look a lot like things his father had done to him. And he really hadn't even wanted to see his father. He had said something to the man on the phone but hadn't known it was their father. He started to cry silently wishing Nana or Nii Nii was here.
"F-father. Maybe... Mmm~ M-maybe show Roki on his b-body...? Ah! Ah! God yes, T-Toru~ I-I-I didn't mean it. I j-just... w-well..."
Roki looked up quickly confused by Toru's words. He was sure the boy had seen who was touching him yet he had said his friends name. "Toru why? Why did you?" He started but was cut off by their fathers screams.
"Are you mental boy!? What the fuck is wrong with your logic!? I'm not you and why would you even fucking say that!?"
Roki watched and heard his father smack Toru across the face, sending his older brother groaning and rolling across the bed. Without thinking he jsut rushed forward, arms out streatched as he cried out in fear. "No! Daddy don't! It's okay. He was talking to Taro. Taro's his friend. Pwease don't hurt Ruru..."
He was crying his eyes out and scared, as he heard his heart beating in his ears. He didn't know why he had moved but he was to scared to move again. He loved his older brother even if he was mean and never wanted to see him hurt.
He heard Toru crying, curled into a ball from fear and pain. As he looked over his shoulder he didn't even get a chance to look at him. A hand smacked him hard across the mouth, knocking him to the floor and causing  him to cry out in pain.
He hit the wall behind him and held his face, tears streaming down his cheeks now. "D-daddy... D-daddy dat hurt... really badly..." He whimpered as he looked in fear at the an standing before him.
"Is this what they teach you at this school? Bullshit!?"
Roki started to answer be was suddenly kicked by his father and he shut up instently.
"Don't you dare fucking speak! Shit! I forgot my beer at home... Ah well... I think I'll leave it at that today anyway. Can't teach dumbasses but so much at one time. Both my sons are a disgrace to me now anyway..."
Roki watched his father cut his eyes at Toru before walking out the door, banging it loudly when he slammed it shut.
He quickly stood up and rushed over to Toru, wanting to make sure the boy was okay. Since he wasn't sure if he was still crying or not he swallowed, sure he was going to regret what he was about to do but he did it anyway. He reached out with his arms and hugged his brother. "Toru... Please don't cwy... I'm sorry..."
He whispered as tiny tears fell from his eyes. He rubbed his brother back a bit before pulling back, finding it best not to push his luck. "I pwomise to use what you said before daddy got here... And... And let Taro make you happy..."
He smiled, giggling a tiny bit as he then turned and looked at the door. He toddled over, slowly and holding his cheek that still hurt badly where his father had smacked him.
As he reached the door he spoke to Toru softly. "It's okay... I will leave but... but let Taro make you happy. After all you always seem better when he does. And it takes only a few minutes."
With that being said he turned and opened the door before walking out into the hall and closing the door. He sighed and wiped at his tears, but more flooded from his eyes. He really wanted Nii Nii now. He felt he needed a hug badly.
Turning towards the exit to the building he started towards it, heading to the school hallway so that he could find Nii Nii. He figured that was his best bet to find the boy since he remebered they were to show the others around the school.

‘’I'm sorry, Takeru. I don't really remember what I did or how I got hurt but like... I guess... I'm so sorry for making you worry.’’, Hikaru said and Shun shrugged, not really wanting to say anything. He would just stay quiet; right now he was still recalling that moment from two hours ago and it kind of made him feel terrible again.
After mentioning that Hikaru should get dressed the boy did, walking over to the dresser and grabbing a shirt and some blue jeans, dressing himself. Shun waited for him to get done, crossing his arms as he stared at Hikaru. Though it hadn't really been his intention to stare, it just happened; he was lost in his own thoughts again. However, he did see Hikaru was feeling some pain again when he got up, probably from the wound on his forehead, which had opened again. Shun swallowed at the sight, he really felt bad and to blame for everything.
Hikaru got back to his feet and walked over to Shun, hugging him tight. Shun was a bit startled at first but soon relaxed and rested his head on Hikaru's shoulder, closing his eyes for a moment. ‘’You don't have to be sorry for anything, Shun. You didn't do anything wrong...well actually...’’
Hikaru grabbed Shun's arm all of a sudden and Shun yelped, not in pain but in shock. Why did the boy do this? Well, he actually knew why but he just didn't want to deal with this right now. He watched how Hikaru pulled up the sleeve from Shun's uniform and showed Shun the bandages around his cut arm. One of his cut arms, that was.
‘’This. If your sorry about this then apology accepted for it. And don't do it again. Got it, cute little Takeru~?’’, he said but he chuckled and popped Shun on the nose. Shun groaned at him, an annoyed look in his eyes. Did Hikaru actually mean this or was he just teasing him?
‘’If you're serious show it, man... Stop toying with me...’’, Shun thought and he pulled back his arm, giving Hikaru a nasty look. ‘’Don't touch my arms...’’
Hikaru messed up Shun's hair and Shun kept holding that annoyed look at him, not saying a word. He just let Hikaru touch his hair, but actually he was really not in the mood to deal with these kind of things right now. Not at all.


‘’So did you want to change your clothes and take a bath or no? Because I kinda wanted to go into town for a bit, maybe grab a bite to eat or check out some of the stores. Oh you could bring your cute little bro and his... um... g-girl I guess...’’, Hikaru then said, at the end of his speech he seemed to feel a bit uncomfortable, after mentioning the girl that had been with Jeamesero when they met up in the cafeteria earlier today. Shun looked at the bathroom and then back at Hikaru, shrugging.
‘’I dunno... I guess we could just go to town straight ahead. I will take a shower later in my own dorm room.’’, Shun responded, remembering that Hikaru might take a peek at him if he went to take a shower here. The thought made him huff, but smile weakly at the same time, because he sounded kind of funny. ‘’Unless of course you want to stay in your own juices. Up to you but I don't mind at all really. They did taste reallyyyyyyy good~’’
Shun gave Hikaru a shocked look before blinking a few times. After a moment he shook his head and grinned weakly, rubbing the back of his head.
‘’Oh man Hikaru, are you ever gonna cut it out?’’, Shun asked, giving Hikaru a smirk, yet his eyes held a hint of confusion; he didn't exactly know what else to say. He wanted to say more about going to town, however, but all of a sudden he felt his phone buzzing again.
At first he was afraid it was his father again, but when he looked at the screen he noticed he was getting sons of messages from Jeamesero. He had completely forgotten about the kid. He was asking Shun where he was, and telling the boy where he was. He was asking Shun to meet up with him. Maybe Shun should go meet up with him, maybe they could all go to town together. Hikaru had already suggested it.
‘’My brother is texting me, asking me where I am.’’, he said as he looked at the text messages, before staring up at Hikaru, holding his phone in his hand tightly. ‘’You said we could go to town together? We could meet up with him and go. What you say? It would be good to show your face, because I'm sure he was pretty worried about you too, back there.’’


Not really waiting for an answer, since Hikaru had already suggested it before Shun had gotten the text messages, Shun looked at his phone again and started texting Jeamesero back, telling the boy they were going to meet up with him in school and head out to the town. He texted that Jeamesero's friend Airamyst could come too, hoping Hikaru would ease up a bit around the person and learn to deal with having girls near him. It seemed like a good exercise, no?
‘’Okay I texted Jeames back. We're going to town together.’’, Shun said with a smile as he looked up and put his phone away, poking Hikaru's shoulder in a friendly and jokingly gesture. ‘’Jeames and I both know the way so you can just follow us. We've been to this school since were we freshmen.’’
After that he pulled back and stared at the ground for a while, not really sure what to do now. They could head out to find Jeamesero, but he just remembered the whole thing that had happened only two hours ago. And not just only Hikaru scaring him.
‘’Wait, before we go... I um... we... how should we act? I mean... around each other?’’, he asked, looking up at Hikaru with a faint blush on his face. ‘’I mean... You too know what happened, it was no imagination or a dream, and we actually are sort of official right now, no...? I mean... um... should we just go to Jeames and... um...? um...’’

‘’What? I didn't do anything... Well yet that is. Just spoke the truth~’’, Hikaru said, he seemed to be joking, sort of. Shun couldn't really tell, but right now he had different things on his mind. And so did Hikaru, now that Shun had mentioned to the boy what the problem was.
‘’Wellllll.... I mean you said yes right? So yeah as far as I know we're dating now. Though...’’, Hikaru said in response, he looked away from Shun and seemed just as shy and confused as he was. He didn't know how to respond or react or act either.
‘’I said yes, yeah...’’, Shun whispered, feeling a bit uncomfortable. He looked away, at the ground. Coming to realize that might have sound a bit like he hadn't meant yes as an answer, he quickly added as he looked back up at Hikaru: ‘’I... I'm happy I said yes. I'm just not sure what to say right now. I don't know what the others will think of us if they find out...’’
had that sound better? Probably, or maybe not. Shun wasn't sure anymore, he wasn't sure about anything. He wanted nothing more than to be with Hikaru but his fears were taking over right now. What if his father really found out? What if Jeamesero did? And his friend Airamyst? What if other people would find out and started bullying them for it, or worse, even hurting them, both mentally and physically? That were the worst fears coming to Shun's mind right now.
‘’Oh yeah... I'm so sorry, Takeru... I lied... You are right. I just... I hate it when he speaks to you like a dog or slave. You always look hurt or scared and upset. If you want to take it back you can. I wouldn't blame you. Heh, I'd make a terrible boyfriend anyway...’’, Hikaru said but Shun shook his head, not really wanting to talk about it. Or at least, not wanting to hear Hikaru say this.
‘’You would not be a terrible boyfriend. You are already an amazing friend so I'm sure you would be an amazing boyfriend. As for my father...’’, Shun said, swallowing for a moment as he tried to find his words, staring at the ground with a faint blush on his face. ‘’You indeed shouldn't have said and done those things but done is done, no return now... And I am upset with him often, yes, but I really don't want you to do that anymore. It will get us both in trouble, trust me... I'm sorry for yelling though.’’


‘’Your choice man. Even though I placed you in danger I really really love you. More then I ever have any single thing before. I would lay down my life for you and more. And as for telling Jeames and others. Let's give it a bit first okay? I don't want to jump into things quickly, we should take it slow at first.’’
Shun gave Hikaru a confused and a bit shocked look, as he grabbed Shun's hands. Shun had seen the look in his eyes though; the boy had wanted to do more than just hold Shun's hands, Shun was sure of that. Though, he didn't say anything to that. He didn't even look down at their hands, trying to avert his eyes. ‘’Alright? Just tell me your answer and thoughts then we'll leave the room when your done.’’
‘’Well um, I... I guess that's a good idea. I'm still not fond of what other people might think of us. Jeames doesn't even know I'm bisexual. He's homosexual, I know that, but I just find it such a hard subject to talk about... I think he should be the first to know though... not?’’, Shun said in response, a rather puzzled look in his face as he was sort of debating with himself right now. What was best and what wasn't? What should he do? ‘’But would you really all do that for me...? That's impressive. T-thank you, Hikaru...’’
Shun smiled weakly at Hikaru, debating with himself whether or not to do it, but eventually he decided to lean in and kiss Hikaru's cheek quickly before pulling back. A blush spread across his face again and he pulled himself free from the boy's grip, hugging himself for a moment. ‘’Well, I guess we should go meet up with Jeames... I assume we won't hold hands just yet when walking through the corridors?’’
Shun didn't really wait for an answer as he moved over to the door, opening it. He looked at Hikaru, gesturing for the boy to follow him. But he stopped himself for a moment there and turned back around, moving over to Hikaru and kissing him on the lips softly. Pulling back he glanced away again and left the dorm room. ‘’You're coming?’’

‘’Well it wouldn't be to hard a choice. I mean I was told that's true love so... yeah...’’, Hikaru had said and Shun had smiled weakly at the boy, not really said anything in response. Because he didn't know what to say. He felt so shy and nervous around Hikaru now, all of a sudden, he had never really felt like this before. He was afraid any words would come out different, and that he might hurt Hikaru in the process of saying them.
‘’True love... is there really such a thing?’’, Shun asked himself as he stood there, wondering about the whole situation he had gotten himself in. had it really been the right choice to say yes to Hikaru? He felt uncertain, but still, it kind of felt good about it. So he guessed he had made the right choice. If only he didn't feel so nervous about all the people that might find out about them and might hurt them, in whatever way possible...
‘’Yeah its still way to early for that kinda of stuff. I mean unless you really want to. It's really mostly up to you.’’, Hikaru said and Shun looked at him. He had dozed off for a moment and was a bit confused, not sure what Hikaru was talking about, when suddenly he remembered him asking Hikaru about holding hands. He looked at the boy and nodded back, nervously playing with his thumbs, but he forced himself to stop and keep his hands at his side when he noticed what he was doing. He probably had appeared like a little shy school girl, acting like this. That was the last thing he wanted to look like. He was a boy, for god's sake.
After Shun had kissed Hikaru he stood by the door, waiting for the boy. He had clearly caught Hikaru off guard and that had actually been his goal; Shun didn't want things between them to get too easy to call, so he guessed this was a good thing? Why was he even thinking that? What was he doing?
‘’Why am I making things so difficult for myself? Even in my thoughts?’’, he asked himself, but he had no simple answer or explanation for that. It would stay a question unanswered.


‘’Aww it was just getting good, Takeru.’’, Hikaru said and Shun looked at him in confusion. ‘’Excuse me?’’, were all the words that left his mouth at that time. But then he remembered the kiss he had given Hikaru, on his cheek. He smiled weakly and shook his head, not sure how to respond to this. ‘’Oh man, you sure know how to lighten the mood.’’, he said, his voice sounded like a mutter but he didn't mean it in a bad way. In fact he was surprised how calm Hikaru was acting right now, both remembering what had happened between them only two hours ago. It felt so strange.
As Hikaru came over to him Shun stepped out of the dorm room and waited for Hikaru to leave as well. He watched as the boy locked his dorm behind him and stared up as Hikaru turned around to face him.
‘’So your ready right? Don't need anything from your own dorm? Of and you lead the way since you know where Jeames is.’’, he said and Shun smiled, shaking his head.
‘’No, I got everything.’’, he said, before feeling his back pocket. ‘’Yeah, everything. My wallet is in my back pocket and I'm sure my dorm room is locked, as well. Let's go.’’
He saw Hikaru signaling him with his hands that Shun had to move, and that he would follow. After all Hikaru had just gotten here, and Shun knew the school better than he did. So Shun started walking, leading Hikaru out of the dorm building and towards the school, looking for Jeamesero. All that time he was deeply in thoughts.

Yuki opened his eyes and blinked a few times, staring dazedly around the room. He realized he was laying in his bed, in a dark room as the curtains were closed, and he was glued to this little adorable orange colored cat plushy with brown stripes and green eyes; his cat plushy Mr. Whiskers.
Yuki yawned and sat up in bed, still looking rather dazed, like he was still half asleep. He rubbed at his eyes, a faint blush on his face. But he didn't feel ashamed. No, it was the faint blush of sickness; Yuki had a flue. But he didn't realize himself yet, not yet. He looked at his alarm clock, Mr. Whiskers pressed firmly to his side. At that moment he saw it was... after 4am at night? No, but there as light outside.
‘’OH NO I OVERSLEPT! I NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL!’’, Yuki screamed in shock and he threw away his plushy and jumped out of the bed, pulling open his drawer and taking out his school uniform. At that moment he bumped into the night stand and knelt down, sitting there on the floor with a sad and confused look in his eyes. ‘’Awww... I feel sick... But I gotta go to school anyway...’’, he told himself, feeling at his forehead. He still didn't know school was actually already over.
Getting to his feet he grabbed his school uniform and got rid of his pajamas, getting dressed into his school's clothes. He then hugged Mr. Whiskers tight, before placing him neatly on the bed. ‘’Gotta go to school quick Mr. Whiskers, I will be back later!’’, he said, completely forgetting about brushing his teeth and storming out of the door. He ran down the hallway and out of the dorm building. That's when he realized what time it was.
‘’Wait... but it's 4pm... School is already over...’’, he whispered, sneezing before making a gagging sound; he tried his best not to vomit. ‘’I should go back to bed... but I'm already dressed now... Let's go to school anyway and see if anyone's there...’’, he whispered to himself before heading out to the school's building.

“Ooooh! They're so pretty! I love the Russian blue! Though, my favorite is my own plushy, Mr. Whiskers~”
Roki barely was able to hold back his giggles, figeiting around on the bed as he held his finger up to his mouth. He was starting to find the boy and his words cute even tho he was the same age. The boy sadly didn't and never really had seen himself as cute even though he acted in a simualer if not worse usually.
He jumped and watched Yuki get up, clearly excited about the surprise. He closed the door and seemed to check it was shut before coming back over to him. Roki popped off the bed as Yuki reached him.
“Okay, I'm ready! Whis is the secret?”
Roki heard the noise in his closet grow louder, whatever it was starting to rush around inside. He placed his finger up to his lips again, smiling as he did so and winked at the boy. “Just wait and watch, Yuki~ Your gonna love it~”
He giggled and quickly turned, rushing over to the closet and popping his head against the door. Once he was sure the thing was okay he pulled the door open as wide as it would go, only to have  several things fall out.
Roki looked at the floor in confusion as his bags, books, and movies fell onto the floor. On the very top was a few animal ears, cats to be excact, and matching tails. A fluffy white cat tail made a soft muffled noise and jumped up, rushing from the pile and heading straight for Yuki.
The boy started giggling and shook his head, finding it rather funny that a tail was runnning around. The tail smacked into Yuki's leg and cried out, seemingly in pain, before rushing under the bed.
Roki bit his lip, smiling shyly at the ground as he tapped his foot. “Sorry about that he um... He's being weird today...” He saw a pair of ears next to his foot and soon noticed Yuki might think him very stupid and weird for having them.
His face heated up and he quickly shoved everything into his closet before shutting the door and turning to Yuki. “I-I-I can exsplain those um... Th-things...” He started, blushing darker as he struggled to find his words.
Before he could speak he heard a soft thump under his bed then a few seconds of silence before a loud mew and cry for help came out. Roki rushed over, scared something might have happened to hurt him.
He looked under the bed, a pair of tiny pair of frightened orbs looking back at him. Whatever it was rushed out, tackled against his leg and started mewling louder. The boy grabbed it up, cuddling it close and turning to Yuki.
“This is my surprise~ It's a baby kitten~” He held it out to Yuki so the boy could see. A quite small black coated, blue eyed baby stared back at the boy. It seemed to mew softly again, still a bit upset and trying to decied whether it should start crying again.
Roki flipped the baby around, holding it pretty carefully as he held the baby's bottom up for Yuki to see. “He's a japanese bob-tail~ Thats how come he has no butt. Nana's friend gave me one when they came to visit and brought their cats and babies with them~ Oh and he's a boy cuz he has a tiny little weewee~”
The boy made sure to point to the stubby little tail then to the kitten's lower body part before looking up at Yuki. “See them~?” He asked happily, well until the baby started crying out again. This time it was more of a hungry cry then anything and Roki realized that.
Roki quickly pushed the crying baby into Yuki's hands. “Here um... Hold him and make him happy while I grab and warm up his milk please.” He smiled at Yuki, fully trusting the boy, before rushing to the mini fridge and microwave. “Just need a few minutes okies~?”

‘’Just wait and watch, Yuki~ Your gonna love it~’’, Roki said and Yuki watched the boy move over to a closet. The boy opened it and a lot of stuff came falling out. Along the pile of school books and movies and other stuff these pairs of cat tails and ears came falling out, as well. Yuki looked in confusion at all of it, but he soon grew excited. Roki had them, too!
One of the cat tails started moving and rushed over to Yuki, crashing into Yuki's leg. Since Yuki hadn't expected this he yelped in shock and watched as the thing went under the bed. He stood there, body frozen, staring down at the bed, before his eyes fell on Roki. The boy's words had caught him off guard.
‘’Sorry about that he um... He's being weird today... I-I-I can explain those um... Th-things...’’, Roki said and Yuki rubbed the back of his head, a bit confused. He wasn't sure what he just had seen. But his eyes fell back on the pairs of cat ears and tails once more and he grew excited again, smiling.
‘’Don't explain! I love those too! I didn't know you had some pairs, as well!’’, Yuki said with a bright smile, happy. He watched Roki move over to the bed and this thing came rushing out from underneath it, this time crashing in Roki's leg. Roki picked it up and showed it to Yuki, and Yuki stared with mouth open at the small thing in Roki's hands.
‘’This is my surprise~ It's a baby kitten~ He's a Japanese bob-tail~ That's how come he has no butt. Nana's friend gave me one when they came to visit and brought their cats and babies with them~ Oh and he's a boy cuz he has a tiny little weewee~ See them~?’’, Roki said as he showed to cat to him, showing the poor thing all over.
‘’Yeah, I can see. He's cute~’’, Yuki said happily, smiling at the cat and petting its head before looking back at Roki. ‘’What's his name?’’
‘’Here um... Hold him and make him happy while I grab and warm up his milk please. Just need a few minutes okies~?’’, Roki then said and he placed the kitten in Yuki's arms, who held the little baby firmly but carefully so it wouldn't fall. The cat seemed a bit scared of him at first and struggled to break free, but as soon as Yuki started petting the cat seemed to calm down and purred in his arms. Yuki smiled cheerfully at him, comfortingly. ‘’See? It's okay, you don't have to be scared. I won't hurt you.’’, he spoke to the kitten, hoping it would feel better. ‘’You will get some yummy warm baby milk soon~’’